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I think maybe I kinda know sorta what I am going to do
First of all I will stick with fuck you, and stay with forgiving they, and start forgiving me and then maybe iniate being nice to them.
People think of "fuck you" in such a bad context sometimes. Actually I think it may be one of the most beneficial building phrases in a person's vocabulary. Of course one needs to use such potent vocacublary at the opportune moment. This moment for the outspoken is what actually creates change in the world. It also can create minor trip ups if you don't know how to skip over such a miniscule rut, that's why people should trust their feet. And maybe know what is feeding there tongues. I myself need to focus on the latter.
You should forgive, not only does the past and future implore this, but you won't get anywhere with it. Be cool.
Biting your tongue is such a variable. Does one bite and choke on their own blood or let it fly and sputter their own spit on themself. I never really have been able to balance this. The past I was usually covered in saliva. I taste more iron these days, however I do not have many saliva glands these days, which is a relief. Maybe when one grows up they go away? maybe?
Ya its cold, don't worry it will be hot this summer assholes, but not as hot as in Africa or in Atlanta's slums. Fucking grass yards. But, thats why we have airconditioning... and a bad economy. Well not really. But maybe. Maybe because of the same mindset that goes with airconditioning. My mom thinks we are getting airconditioning. Not happening. We have the good life.
What asshole supports sulfide mining? We don't want it here. Our lake, our rivers. But where is my car, my i pod, what about my stainless steal stove? I love the yellow dog plains. Go back to South America. No regulations. But make sure to bring back my stain less steal. Ass hole?
tbc
Fuck you-I love- fuck you
I need to go wipe up my face.
lalalaalalala
kitty says meow and cat says RAOWLLL
Grades shmades. The question is what did you do with your day? You did the required. Well that time is exspired. Unless you do not want this world to exsist in 2030.
BMchca Bmchca Bmchca yaaaaaaa....
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[27 Dec 2006|01:04am] |
Christmas....
Four hours ago this word would have spurned a reaction of hate, theories, and accusations.
But I'm feeling kinda chill right now
Because my Grandma's sweet and awesome and brilliant and lays the shit like it is on the table
I was kinda disturbed because I saw the whole King Lear thing happen at this house
Which made me very abrasive and I am usually really imtimidated by my aunts and uncles (on my dad's side) Instead of being watchful I spazzed out. So on Christmas I layed my shit down on the table. However it was kinda messy and neatly layed out like my Grandma. I still talk into my shirt and avoid contact with anyone because its akward and Donald's response to Kelly's question of "we only see you three days a year." was "What do you expect."
Basically my Grandma is God and she is smarter than anyone and more insightful than anyone and more beautiful than me, you , them, her , or him.
The food was sweet. But sometimes I felt guilty eating it... Which is odd, but everyone is extremely witty, and subtley sarcastic, and all knowing. Which actually means extremely annoying. But once I realized this, I basically said fuck off and shoved a whole pie down my throat. And it was good. And then I listened to Ani and got lost and saw this old man fishing. And I felt a bond. It was odd. But then when I was coming back Amelia called I was laughing obnoxiously and he smiled at me again but it was a different smile and I was kinda sad. ANd maybe he was a little disappointed. Disappointed. Disappointed.
It was kinda funny because my ddadddyo who is kinda of my bff but lately he has had issues. I also have issues, but to the story. Well he is kinda proud of us for reasons I am not totally sure about, but it was kinda of funny. He would be like "Laura's ACT score" or "Laura and KElly both didn't take any pain medication for their wisdom teeth extraction." NOt exactly in that context, but you could just see the aunts and uncle faces, and hear the booming absense of a response. IT was extremely akward and I kinda wanted to jamb my fork into my jaw so I could instead concentrate on that pain. But usually I thought he was the instigator but I now see it is actually everyone, and it was kinda funny. Princess and I laughed kinda. The Thug was too busy thinking about the upcoming walk-by-stabbing to realize not to further this with an instigation of why I took her CD player.
The gansta however has been persistantly perturbing me. I may just have to show her how the real shit works on the street. She can be bad ass but she crosses my path and her beads wont be on no chain no more. She doesn't realize that its benifical to have allies in your gang because you don't know what another side of town will be like.
Pretty Princess and I are getting along a little better. We have an agreement...we dont agree on anything. I need to be more insightful in my gift buying and be aware of how much the hope college will cost in comparison with the emerald city (even though I am guaranteed at least a 10000 dollar scholarship annually for 4 years). I also need to stop judging people. It is true that I definatly have my own set perception of things, but I guess like any authoritarian, the princess thinks I need to agree with her on such issues as society.
Christmas...
I could do without. I mean we are doing without snow and will continue to probaly for most of the rest of our lives
SO I can do without Christmas. I like seeing family (family I can actually have a conversation with) I like getting things. But I don't like it when people that don't give a shit about me get me something. Granted its nice stuff, but I dont like feeling indebted to people I have no bond with. I rather get nothing than have to under go 3 months of commercials and shopping and fighting and fake smile and repeating non genuine salutations and seeing sick nice shiny things and hear about all the stupid shit everyone got when I dont give a fuck and shut the fuck up about the environment or else return that shiny thing and be a real tree hugger with thorns and shit
Because the world is going to hell and I have accepted that. Theres no fucking snow.
I feel like I should edit, but no. I want to wipe my finger pads clean.
I do like seeing the g-parents. THe middle agers should realize that even though the G's are old they are still smarter than m-agers by about an age of enlightenment.
But Cathy is sorta cool. I mean she will come round and be really friendly when I pretty bluntly just shut her down. But she shuts everyone down herself, so I guess its sorta in equilibrium
So I see the cousins in about 14 hours. I dont think we can go all that crazy because there won't be enough family members to create a sufficient distraction. O well we always have a grand ol time. Gansta better start lining up me as a member in her gang, or she is going down down to china town
lalalalla
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[01 Jul 2006|04:03pm] |
I tried reading my coffee grounds
and it just told me I was going to be taking a really large poo
lala
I think that sums up just about everything
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[21 May 2006|07:10pm] |
I would love for Jill to come home.
Every time I see her brothers, it reminds me and I want to cry...
mha
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[26 Feb 2006|05:50pm] |
I find it amusing that I only write in my LIVE journal when I am angry
what does that say about me
can't be good
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[26 Feb 2006|05:16pm] |
I want everyone to realize that I/we am more of a help dead than an actvist
but since we are breathing of now we should make that air the most pure we can.
or cut off our legs.
or my tongue
how is my computer working?
fuck I am hypocrit
and I can't spell
but your a bitch
and can't think
thinking does not have to be clear
but my water does
I dont feel good
but you do
or think you do
because nothing reallly is that clear
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It is January and it is raining
I am sick of people telling me that it is not global warming and it is just weird weather. It has been like this all winter. Huge hurricanes? I am scared for summer. It makes me sad that I am part of the problem. Even sadder is, I would be more helpful dead than bitching about the problem.
They want to use lethal means on the wolf population. ONly recently have wolves been taken off the endangered species list. But of course we own this world. If I want to build a house on a river in the middle of the woods, I own that woods. And if a wolf poses a threat to me and my family, it needs to be taken care of. I paid for that land. And want to live in the peace.
WHERE the FUCK ARE THE WOLVES GOING to find peace?
If I wolf ever kills me, do not punish it. (Michigan does not support the death penalty.)
I have been trying to be an alright-sorta-nice person this month. I have come to the conclusion it only makes me act more stupid. And I'm not even being that nice. There are a lot of wonderful people out there but I am not one of them. Do not talk to me, because I might stab you in the back.
Two papers to write..
2 labs todo
3 math assignments and a quiz tomorrow
1 long ass assignment for chem
Its really not worth it
Nothing really is
lalala
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[22 Jan 2006|04:19pm] |
I really want to go walk Trapper.
I wanted to walk him last weekend
and yesterday
and I can only do it when I have ample time
my parents just dont understand
THAT I NEED to walk that DOGGG.
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It's not coool when you have no assets
and you know it and deep down they know it
but you continue to ride, sometimes with a few highs
sometimes those highs consisting of you acting flamboyantly
or speaking exuberantly
and then you go home and stare at the ceiling and realize you haven't said, done, learned, taught anything
you sorta sleep
but you can't because you the silliest comment escaped your pie hole today at lunch
when you should of just really ate your pie
especialy since even before it slipped out, you wanted to jam the fork through you tongue
and you realize that you have fallen into step with a beat you never wanted the jig
or a life that a 14 year old you would not deem worth living.
but your seventeen and tomorow you will be smiling
a stupid grin, of course
because where you brain lacks your voice compensates
lalallalalalallalalalalalallala
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[11 Jan 2006|07:11pm] |
Lucy goes on livejournal to much.
I could be dancing at nooon
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[02 Jan 2006|02:45pm] |
New Years was quite fun. Not to crazy but not dull. It s the people that can make it dull and they weren't. Which leads to my newyears resolution...
1. Stay away from my bed. (This can cover a lot of New Year resolutions in one statement)
2. Cut out my tongue.
I have trouble setting goals, mainly because I am still not sure where I'd like to go in life. Maybe it all leads back to the fact that there might not be anywhere to go.
O and to be nice. Which Im not.
lalala
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[08 Dec 2005|09:27pm] |
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I know this is a lame way of doing this...
I just wanted to thank everyone or at least aknowledge all the wonderful people, who make my life brighter.
And to say this has turned out to be a very wonderful birthday.
Your cookies
Your enchildas I LOVE THEM
the ones who even though I dont hang out with you anymore you still remembered and I still love you
The repetive "Happy Birthdays"
The cakes.."exspecially the one from dance"
my mum making everything perfect
Kelly being nice and letting me have ONE ravioli. hahaha
My dad's good mood
My grandparents singing "I will remember that till my death bed"
Your hugs
Your calls
Your cards
Even thhe fact that you smiled
Even you coming over
Helping pick out my birthday cake
and I wasn't going to go to school today...But I did because I thought it would be selfish if I didn't. And I'm glad I did. It's people like you that make life worth living. To deny your friendship is a sin. And I think I've realized that maybe my goal in life is to be all of you.
I just wanted to I LOVE YOU
lalala
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[05 Dec 2005|07:49pm] |
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Rockin around the Christmas Tree...!!!!3r afuaosdiufjjas
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[24 Nov 2005|01:10pm] |
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SAVE THE TURKIES. Eat tofu.
GOOBBBLEW BOBBLEWW YUM YUM not...
They have feelings too.
So does tofu.
I just can't win
Not really but maybe.
Jolly Mashed Potatoes
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[14 Nov 2005|07:36pm] |
At first I was really really upset on not going to go to CHicacaga, actually still am, since many amazing friends are going and I would get to see Jillian a bit. But I believe I will have a good weekend anyways.
Christmas is soon, need to start economizing
I love it when I stare intently off into space and a teacher or person asks for my opinion, my gaze suggesting I have some sort of brilliant idea. To bad when I do that, its actually the opposite I may as well be asleep.
MY KITTTYTOISUFOIPJALFJLDKJF Lcome s home tomoomwowowo or wednesday.
take pics avec ma amie, Lucy tonight. She doesnt know that yet though.
that sounds creepy
Week behind in pre - calc ...so why?
lexus
lee
salone
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[09 Nov 2005|06:47pm] |
all these chickens ran around like their heads were cut off frantically looking for everypiece of corn that fell on the ground. They felt they were starving. Finally the farmer got so annoyed he cut all their heads off.
and I had a good dinner sunday evening.
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[07 Nov 2005|08:28pm] |
I am getting another kitty, temporarly. Its going to my aunt at Thanksgiving or Christmas.
lalala
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[02 Nov 2005|03:29pm] |
aaa
just got muffin tops in the mail...so good. best present ever. love dani. I have ate 3 bowls already. they make me feel bunches of fun better.
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[25 Oct 2005|08:23pm] |
. What is your middle name? lynn
2. Last person you kissed? my cat...
3. What are you listening to right now? the goblins
4. what are the last 2 digits in your phone number? !!
5. What was the last thing you ate? a baby
pig
6. Last person you hugged? my dad's cousin
7. How is the weather right now? nice and cold
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? fefifofumb
9. Favorite type of Food? domestic animals
10. Do you drink? milk
11. Do you smoke? I am not on firee
12. Ever get so drunk you dont remember what you did? I hope not
13. Hair color? copper poop orange
14. Eye color? o you know...red
15. Do you wear contacts? sorta
16. Favorite Holiday? Christmas if its not hell
17. Whens your Birthday? National holiday
18. Have you ever cried for no reason? even if there is "no reason" there is a reason
19. Last Movie you Watched? Lion King..MUFASAA
20. What books are you reading? chemistry
21. Piercings? only stabbings
22. Fav movie? Big Fish, finding neverland, fox and the hound
23. What were you doing before filling this out? Wasting more of my time doing stupid surveys like this.
33. Dogs or cat? hmmm dogs in general, but I would die/live in utter miserablelity with out my cats
34. Favorite Flower? forget me knots
35. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to? I was a toddler at one point in my life...O and a teenager, still am.
37. Have you ever loved someone? I feel very uncomfortable answering this question. I do however love my cats and my grandma and grandpa
38. Who would you like to see right now? Dani
39. What do you like getting the most? a neckalce made out of my enemy's teeth
40. Have you ever fired a gun? When I killed that bitch
41. Do you like to travel by plane? If it has good food and a movie. and Kelly is not farting
42. Right-handed or Left-handed? right
44. How many pillows do you sleep with? I dont
45. Are you missing someone? A few, 2 in particular
lala
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[19 Oct 2005|03:59pm] |
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I AM SO Excited for CHICAGAAAAA....the bistro techno clubs blueman and the art museum. I use to HATE cities, (generally I still do). It all depends on the city. I love chicaga and NewYork.. And madison and boston (from what I've seen) Some cities I dont like...I hATE APPLETON, and greenbay, and detroit, and traverse city (Now, hopefully Marquette can steer clear of becoming TC 2) ann arbor, basically cities in general.
Its interesting when I am older I want to live in a big city or in the country. Small apartment over a chinese restaurant, or a cabin in the woods with horses. No inbetween. The robots ccan have their suburbs and developments.
Back to chicaga....Its decorated, and unlike most I love the advertising part of Christmas. I love window shopping. I love the wierd trendy decorations clothing shops come up with. Decorated Glass bulbs in a vase?
O and the foooddd...
ANd I may get to visit Jillian hopefully
lalala
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